I said my last goodbyes as the lift shuts close behind me.

"atleast someone's happy today"

"excuse me?"

he thought I was happy and excited about new year. so excited that it got me singing.

"ha-ha... yeah... sure"

.... am I really?

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currently I am playing britney spear's oops i did it again on repeat. I feel so young suddenly wtf.

yesterday we celebrated jian rick's birthday at times square.
(HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YOU EGG! ^^)
while we were all in the karaoke room, there was this lady that fell from the 4th or 5th floor.
there was blood, there was broken bones.
she layed there unconscious. from what I heard she looked awful and in pain and everyone was crowding around her.
how can they not right someone just commited suicide in a shopping mall or someone pushed her over or... maybe it was an accident. highly doubt it though. doesnt make sense :/
but god... the timing... crazy man...

oh and congrats to Madihah, she scored 8A's for her pmr!
you go girl!!

also i just came back from Aiza's.
the serenity of being away from that hellhole. awesome.
regardless of what I have to pay for doing so, its still, abso-freakin-lutely awesome.


I must confess
that my loneliness
is killing me now

hit me baby one more time :3