it is 3:13 am.

I've been so tired with all the exchange programme preparation that I've been having very serious trouble sleeping. I just can't fall asleep!!! I'd always end up stressing myself about whats to be done, what to bring tomorrow, what plans need to be sketched out, names to be taken down, lists to complete, budget, teachers, students, banners, posters, places to go, students dislikes/likes, food to prepare, japanese japanese japanese! *explodes*

insomniacs, be my friend?

I even forgot that they're coming so soon wtf. just felt like we had to work, work, and work only. the excitement that stayed with me through six months, I only feel numbness in me now due to the stress. so sad can die. thank god a lot of my very very nice friends and other students are really making an effort to help and work this out together. or not... *shudders*

thank you so so much guys... ;(

what really ticked me off before was how we needed to succeed to his every expectations, to his degree of perfection. BUT he only gave us confirmation LAST MINUTE. then blame every little flaw on us. teehee. yala, u God ma!

to me now, naps are the most glorious thing EVER. oh god... to be able to just get a quick shut-eye... to be able to just drift away to slumber land and forget about everything that is going on, ohhhh... *drools wtf*

today has been really... funny.
cause one, I dropped off Hanim, Rachel and Steven at menara polo right after Hanim screaming my name when Grandma and I were about to drive off of school. hahaha retards! apa la u guys! taxi also ditch u guys liao! :P

then two, I thought I was 30 minutes late to class (yeah, thanks Hanim :p) but I was early wtf! pretty embarrassing when I ended up stuttering very nervously explaining why I was late when I wasn't.

three, lightning and thunder scares the shit outta me. it was raining like, SUPER HEAVILY and thunder was like SUPER loud and lightning SUPER scary and I had to walk in the open air, in the middle of the crazy typhoon to get my bag on the other side of the courtyard. T_T every time I build up the courage to just make a run for it, the image of me getting strike by lightning and just... die there kept appearing! -_-" stupid lulu, I was purposely implying every reason to make an impression that I need a companion to go get it. wanted him to follow me so akhem, can finally squeeze in some lulu and sach alone time but AIYOH. HE JUST EXPLAIN TO ME HOW TO USE A LONGER, SAFER WAY THEN CIAO. potong steam sial! staring at the window whining and wishing over and over again for my bag to just miraculously appear in front of my eyes didn't help. coincidentally one of my good friends was still in school so he teman me go take. thanks, mojojojo! ^^

four, a friend of mine jokingly reasoned I was his first love. yes, J, it is permanently burned into my brain thank you very much! T_T

five, I brought my tap shoes to school today because right after school was my tap class. Mel, you know what happens next! hahaha I lent her my shoes and she tapped non-stop weh. haha it was very cute, like the movie Happy Feet. then I demonstrated a little to show how tap dancing really is like and now they call me. The Tapper. wtf.

3:50 am.

I just finished listing out places and things to do during the home stay and wow, one heck of a list it is! I guess the main reason why I'm so easily stressed with this is because this is my last year of hosting. do you know how very sad that is? for someone who willingly agreed to stay in this hellhole cause of this programme. this programme means so much to me and this is my last chance of making it enjoyable, memorable and perfect. usually to make that happen, to me, is by doing things spontaneously. you just don't know whats gonna happen next so it pretty exciting. but spontaneity really doesn't apply much in this programme. sob.

it is 4:09 am now and I am chatting with Aiza online. oh yesh, she wakes up at this time to finish WORK. now tell me, who is the crazy one here?

:p

[§] says:
weh im blogging now
[§] says:
type smtg here cause i wanna copy and paste it to my blog
[§] says:
since we're chatting at 4 am in the morning
[§] says:
like a msg to me keke

i.za. says:
this whole convo?! O_O

[§] says:
HAHAHA NO LAH
[§] says:
i'll just quote u lah!

i.za. says:
sachieicanhazcheezeburger can't borrow my cam. she dunno how to use
i.za. says:
wtf
i.za. says:
what to type?

then.

i.za. says:
weh my burpings getting better :D

HAHAHAHA ILY <3

was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me?
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