why lah most of my friends dislike Black Eyed Peas? I seriously think their music is super awesome lorh. I listened to all their songs in their latest album and I love each and one of them. Party All The Time, Alive, Missing You, Mare, One Tribe, Now Generation, I Gotta Feeling, Imma Be, Rock That Body, Meet Me Halfway, and Ring A-Ling are my favourite. (lol. like I said, I love all the songs in the album!) nowadays I keep listening to One Tribe, it gives me this Michael Jackson vibe *OW!* wtf.

my art teacher was absent today so that means I wasn't pressured into continuing my art folio in her presence. it felt like I just got free from jail, literally. though I haven't been to a real prison lah but, you get what I mean. she'll take me away from PE lesson to finish the art project and I used to hate it. so much. I want to sweat and release endorphins also!!! alongside school friends sumore. I'd very much rather be happy jumping or running and being healthy than sitting down very uncomfortably under the watch doing art stuffs which I barely even understand how to anyway.

so because she wasn't present, I was free to join the others at the field :D is our school field that big? I never actually noticed, but being in the middle of it with BEP playing on replay, watching friends playing football with HAPPY plastered on their faces, I've never felt so at ease. so warm with fuzzy feelings and thoughts of heaven arose wtf. I was ready to die happily. haha. if only that fuzzy feeling could be instilled right before I take my last breath. if only I can automatically insert that moment in my head before I fall into nothing but pitch blackness.

oh then two small dogs came and I screamed at the top of my lungs for help wtf. turns out the dogs were the type who were terrified of humans. so I yelled and ran for nothing. awesomeness.

Miso came over for lunch just now. I love it when she gets so satisfied and excited like that, all kudos to my mom's cooking. the first thing she said as we arrived at the gate was how its been so long since her last visit. how time flies, two months already? felt like it was just a week ago we were fighting over MY tub of ice-cream. sent her home, and as we drove through that very same lane, I remember it all. the escape pure on luck, the spasms on my hands, the sweat down my neck, the tears on every munch on ice-cream. I remember it all.

oh, if you've been in the same car as me then you should know how quiet I get. my friends say I'm in my own world when I enter a car. I don't know why, but its true. I just automatically jump into my own thoughts and everything gets so surreal I become best friends with silence. weird.

I put extra effort in housework today, just because I want mom to stop hurting so much.

maybe now I should put my all in studying too, because I NEED to stop hurting at how dumb I am for slacking so much. theorem, 2,3,5 la no meh!?

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