I can feel the difference in my weight ALREADY hahaha...
... not funny wtf
ah well. usually every night of raya we'll all sit infront of the tv listening to the takbir raya and reminisce of our late ones. friends, family, etc. I can't help but wonder how are they doing, you know, on the other side? so many have passed on and though it has been months/years? I can still taste that denial. that shock when news came.
how are you, really?
grandma, adi, and hakeem...
another raya passes by without you but that's only physically, we still remember and think of you, and we miss you. always :)
I had like, five ice-creams today. I kid you not.
I must restrain myself from spending my duit raya this year. strictly for overseas trips, only!!! Kyoto and Seoul, wait for me. I'll be there someday. by hook or by crook rawr wtf.
we talked more today - my cousins and I. usually I'd be the one sleeping in the guest room while they all hog the tv infront. the adults would be chatting away happily but to me, to bond and open up to my cousins is a little hard as it tends to get awkward very quickly and our age gap plays a huge disadvantage.
this goes to my dad's side though, I used to be so close to my mom's side, but thats all different now. the last time we talked to each other was what, years ago? admittedly I miss them a lot. my sisters miss them like hell too. we were this close, like seriously. I'd fall asleep crying wondering why did it have to end this way but growing up I see no point getting upset over it already. I'm just glad I have very fond and vivid memories of time spent with them :)
selamat hari raya to muslims and non-muslims, maaf zahir dan batin.
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