as much as I hate to admit it, but my prestigious plans of slave-studying for this holiday was a downright failure. though family time dramatically increased just right about enough, I have no complaints :)

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I am now blogging from a place I've been missing for far too long. weather here is always just the way I like it.

I hear a lot of planes outside as it is our National Day today. this year's merdeka celebration has been the most uneventful to date. usually we have this family tradition but because of puasa none of us are up to following the tradition haha. uneventful, but still happening. anticipating for the fireworks tonight :)
I love family gatherings. its just amazing how the same blood runs through our veins, knowing we are alike and apart of each other in some way. now I feel like I want kids. damn it.

I found this picture in my Dad's computer. sigh how I laughed and laughed. it is a picture of me 6 years younger, posing outside a mall with sisters and friends after performing in a concert.

just look at how tiny Deanna looks. Sasha is forever the poser in the family haha. OMIGOD look at me, so flat! *wails* why can't I stay boobless forever.

six years later. erh, Sasha's at the back with my mom haha. I scolded Deanna asking her what happened to her cuteness wtf.

you know why I had such awfully long hair before? the main intention of it was to cover my chest area actually :P but I just couldn't stand the heat (global warming wtf) and since I sweat easily, my thick hair would stick to my neck and it just feels so ARGH.
one day I got back home after an event and I just couldn't stand it, I chopped it off. I don't regret it at all, though I feel pretty bad for the "fans" wtf. oh how they'd glare and glare like I've just commited a big sin. SORRY lah but try being in my shoes, so bloody hot okay! now I'm just dying to try a mohawk hairstyle. sighsighsigh!

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ah its that time of year again, fasting month.

some may wonder what is it all about but to my understanding it is a time to cleanse, mind and body and it is also to be more appreciative to one of God's glorious blessings - food. it is also to challenge ourselves from exceeding to temptation. I also heard it is also to feel what the less-fortunate feels like, how they have to struggle a day without food and water, and how they work their asses off for a single grain of rice, theoratically speaking.

Well, actually there are many wisdoms to fasting. A popular one would be, the fact that it gives you a constant consciousness of the people who are less fortunate; it encourages charity. Another would be, it's for the good of your body. It kinda gives the digestive system a break. But my favourite is the fact that this is one month I feel way closer to God than any other month
-muslimahofthecentury

oh and also, most of us take fasting as a time to diet hahaha. it sucks how Raya is right after puasa month though, cause we'll all gain back all that weight we've lost. two of my family members are already saying how they'll lose their tummy for sure this time so, we'll see :p

I can't wait for Raya!!! I love it especially when the family and my godsis's gathers and balik kampung together. syiok gler, mercun kao kao wtf.

anyways, happy fasting to all muslims.

I like puasa month. less... distractions :)

aiyoh where is my tuition teacher!!!
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it has been a crazy night. when carrying a knife around and plotting an escape plan is necessary, it has taught me a great lesson. never, ever leave the gate open when you're too distracted by Ghost Whisperer on tv. it was very unfortunate that all our phones were unreliable. thank thank God it wasn't who I thought it was, that creepy stalker guy who waited outside our house at a very odd hour. I became super paranoid after that, as I had two younger sisters to protect.

we fell asleep locked in our parents room, with knives and pepper spray squeezed in between, and I woke up by the sound of my dad's snoring. until now I've just been so awake together with the youngest, Deanna. as I'm typing this she is giggling her butt off watching Hannah Montana. oh, Kim Possible is next. heyyy, the Rock is in hannah montana fuhyoh. disney stars get everything haha

jonas brother's What I Go To School For is such a cute song hahaha
& demi levato's La La Land is nice! I thought it was paramore atfirst when I heard it playing in youtube.

I have so many plans for tomorrow.
all these second chances, I am nothing to deserve such. sometimes all that I wanna say is,
thank you :)

I miss my camera. I miss it so damn much and I bet you do, too. don't you come here with the intention to view pictures mainly? I still don't know how to let it slip to dad, but since this happens averagely less than often... it should be... tolerable?

I also miss my language classes. I stopped both momentarily cause of SPM but honestly, what difference does it make? I have more free time which normally ends up with non-educational stuffs, like now, usage of internet hahaha. but it does help on the expenses part, so that means everything.


you were this close to closing deals
but you figured it best if you ignore it
nothing more than longing you were uninvolved.
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most of my friends know how much I'm DYING to watch this movieee!!! HEEEEEE wtf.
I wanna go tomorrow rawr. WHO WANTS TO FOLLOW ME JOM JOM JOMMM!

I can't wait to watch the time traveler's wife too, the book was a good read.

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sydney, 2007




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I asked a guy in Rock Corner if they had any Chick Flicks they could recommend and he thought I was talking about a specific movie. so I went out movieless FML

here are more MTV live stage pictures in a very random order :

the thing started at 6, and we arrived at sunway at 3. who says all malaysians are always fashionably late!

ah, this is a tale of a girl who was happily falling into a dream fantasizing about pillows and sleep when suddenly a poster bounced off frantic hands and tada, there it was, in mine. fuh. so lucky, can? same thing happened to marc I guess, one of the band members threw that bottle he drank from and boom! marc has it HAHAHA. CUZ WE SO AWESUMZ LIDAT.

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I feel so happy today.
so very, happy.
very, happy.

see how big a difference it makes when I miss nearly a week of school, and it's the holidays next week. man, loving life. fucking loving life :D 0 comments

with Kim, who I love and who I'm married to, but she enjoys burning my eyelashes with deadly eyelash curlers or whatever you call it.

her excitement over Kasabian didnt die off till 6:30 in the morning wtf.

close-ups rocks our socks, because we so paris hilton lidat *flips hair*
by the way, that's Brian! this guy also same case, so excited then sleep damn late hahaha. unlike me, once I reached the hotel I ate kuey teow than I crashed teehee. then I dreamt of very corny stuffs that was related to titanic. wtf.

in the car on the way to Sunway. thanks to the tengku we made it there lo. she and my grandma can be best friends pft. I was so excited to sit beside Kim FML. I had the jobros (because firstly, they wore matching outfits and second, they look like long lost brothers) me though, disgruntled marc was infront shoving brian's face away because brian was trying to make out with him wtf.

I IS SO SKILLFOOLZ, I MAKE MARC LOOK BURNING PANAS.
anyway, we had lunch at Tony Roma's and got cute waiters there teeeeeeeee.
BUFF SAND ALL THE WAY
hahaha only those who were there would get the joke ;p

it rained :( :( :(

we were forced to wear this MTV transparent raincoat over before we go in.

ALL HAIL TENGKU WHO LOVES OREO COOKIES. teehee (l)

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I still haven't send my camera for repair, and I'm only panicking now because this weekends will be full of different events and I wanna remember it all! the venues are totally remote from where I live so that means its like, once in a blue moon only can go visit type of thing. the people I'm going with are gonna be all dolled up and looking glamorous so its definitely something worth the hassle. and the lights, oh don't me started on the lights. I need a camera :(

I'm planning to ask dad but knowing him and his mindset of me being too "boy-ish" with every gadget I've ever owned, he'll have his doubts. that usually means no.

GAH.

watched He's Just Not Into You yesterday, awww I loved the ending! and suprisingly there were no waterworks *beams proudly* wtf. is it me or every movie of Scarlett Johanson that I've watched will have scenes where she'll be all over the boy, literally. so slutty meh!

on Monday we had this jamming session all the way in town and I walked around KL with my baju kurung pffft. my school shoes sucks so bad, I nearly slip when we were, erh, "briskwalking". ahhh I had so much fun... Min you are the most gentleman-est-EST-ESSSSSSST guy friend I've ever had. please stay that way *kneels to God* wtf.



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back to school nom nom nom.

you know how they say when you love it, it'll all seem better but I've tried that with school COUNTLESS times and it barely makes a huge difference. bitches will be bitches. meow. I love bumping into my sisters during school hours, their happiness is so pure, I can't help but lighten up when I meet them. if only our break hours are at the same time OMIGOD :3

dad received news of death of a colleague and while being too astounded to say anything, he asked

"why does the good guys go first?"

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I knew he was insincere, but I just let the man con me.

I was that dispirited. I found out about it earlier but only until I saw the pictures was I overwhelmed with astonishment. each fragment concerns trust, they know that very damn well. my morosity betrays my insecurity, they know that very damn well too. the next time I choose to open up and start caring for a friend, smack me in head will you?

I don't mean in general, ofcourse.

I still have retards who I care for, who I can pick a fight over ice-cream with me :)
(Miso wtf. eh stupid korean I want my starbucks java chip ice-cream!!!)
(and ofcourse, Kim. aiyah we're bound for eternity lah wtf)
(hello, Sue Yii! you horny bitch who tormented me in my younger high school years. you make me cry hahaha)

you know, enough of caring about what people think. I like, then I like la. why manipulate my own feelings when I know, I like that friend goddamn it. I should stop, those who are not worth fighting for, you've all made it clear. fucking clear :)

wtf I'm feeling better already. that is why I love blogging, it makes me feel better in 0.000005 seconds heh. I bought He's Just Not That Into You two days ago and for some reason I've been so reluctant to watch it. I'm excited at the thought of snuggling in between my fat cat and soft crispy pillows with a mug of hot milo in hand while watching it, and crying at the end because I am such a softy lidat, but I can't seem to just, DO it. I think its this art folio. it must be this art folio.

I drove today, and its not as easy as I thought it would be. my confidence was crushed kao kao on the first round.

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I don't know how to put this, either I've totally lost my mind or I seriously lack self-control. wonder how this'll end. ought to be very, very interesting hmmhmm.


btw, totally random but who cares.
I HEART JAMES MORRISON!!!

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how I wish you'd just stop for a moment and realise what you're doing is wrong.
I'm here, now.
but no.
all you see, what I wanna be.

I'll make it happen.
when that day comes
it'll be as hard, it'll be as fast.
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I wanted to ask my dad this at first, as "Fuel Reserve" appeared blinking in the monitor

"are you low on gas?"

but instead.

I accidently said

"are you low on ass?"

FML.
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