feet, please don't freeze up like the last time. PLEASE OHMYGOD /die 0 comments

its within my reach, this happiness. the taste of fleeting rush of my every waking moment has quiet down for too long now. fear seeps in and out of solitude and I'm just as helpless as to doing something about it. giving myself a break now and then, even that, seems like a very wrong thing to do. when weekends are as sleepless - that's when its scariest.

(awww, Aiza's playlist has very old dongbangshinki songs! those which I've been DYING to listen to. I remember how I used to sneak my old mp3 player in during finals when I was form 2-3. sigh how carefree and DBSG-fied I was.)

am at Aiza's place now - she's having tuition. I miss Miso. she was absent today and I called her up an hour ago but apparently she's too busy. PFFFT. you stupid korean wheres my starbucks ice-cream T-T I've given up every inch of hope for my tap. I should've just sticked to my decision of not being bothered by it at all this year.

all these untangled relationships, after spm la kay? after spm.

wanna know a secret?
sometimes as I walk pass the juniors I secretly wish they were my age. then it wouldn't be faulty to date such hotties. 0 comments

I am most at east when its raining. I love the rain. Can it please rain now? 0 comments

if i could lay my finger on this, this would be the time to say - give me more time.

22 more days to THE exam, and 3 more days to my tap exam. if i stop to think, i would've gone bonkers a long time ago. don't you just love The Script's and Kris Allen's Gotta Live Like We're Dying? songs like this are perfect to allow some self-indulgence, no matter the insanity. the only thing I want to do is download songs, is that so hard!? connection has been sucky for the past month thus the lack of updates. restraining myself from youtube was a definite upgrade in my studying. but its never enough, is it? I have so much more to cover up I just wanna sit down and cry.

not long ago I was placed in a situation where truth was laid out like a perfect mind map - but the key here, was to lie. not to them, but to myself. in the space that's too small catching up with the gazes tears ran like wildfire. in another situation, I fought for what I believed in and ended up being succumbed to my own agony. out of respect, silent wars grew and is now plotting its next plan. its sad really. just, sad.

so thats how I've been - sad.

dealing with different people - to love and to be loved. to see one give up on another takes the cherry on top. seeing the amount of manipulation done I can't explain why its not enough. its amazing how one can turn it all around to save themselves and walk away, guiltless.

kudos to you, my friend.

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YES!

SA-CHIE IS BACK!


MOST DEFINITELY INCREDIBLE, HEY MOVE

S TO THE A TO THE CHIE CHIE! wtf.


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two more papers of art, and spm countdown begins there.

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haha aiyoh I sound so friggin serious, its cracking me up. but really lah, I was about to post something like OMG TRIALS IS OVER OH YEAH BABY LICK ME but the real SPM is still to come darn it.

so anyway I had so much sleep last night it felt so goooooooood. it seems like sleeping is the most impossible thing to do now. sigh. growing up la kan. last night I crashed at Za's along with Miso. stupid korean kept hugging me in her sleep (actually I like very much wan kekeke^-^) and stupid goldfish kept sleeping in between movies haha. actually thinking back our sleeping pattern last night was pretty hilarious. when one was awake and alive, the other two was dreaming away.

yes yes I shall start studying for art soon but let me share with you my dilemma now first!

so right, after SPM ends, go to Korea first or Japan? pfft yes, that's my dilemma but hey this is a life crisis thing okay!!! my masa depan begitu merunsingkan! wtf.

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Hi.

I'm still alive, though my mentality of everything is vastly changing so blogging time will reduce until SPM is over and done with.

to-do after trials : watch SBS Idol Big Show. wait for me :'( 0 comments