but me, myself. I like to think I was created, for a special purpose.
Saturday, April 24
first thing I need to do when I get back home later : CLEAN ROOM! oh me lord if someone asks me have you seen a pig's sty I would say aye, for my room is no different. was rushing to class then to meet him then rush to an event later every thing's everywhere!hehe green tea ♥
feeling much better now. concentrate only on those who care - that's what I will practise, and stay happy at. trust, its inevitable now. I'll just have to open up and have faith in humanity. especially in this group of people who has been so amazingly patient and tolerant. thank you. thank you for not giving up. you guys are awesome-possum and I love each and every one of you :) focus on pleasing yourself first, then only others. I'll do whatever I want to do and I'll be whoever I want to be. too bad, I'm back bitches.
its not easy having your best friends scattered all over the globe. the lack of verbal communication and physical presence just makes me think more. me and my thoughts, I know I know. I shouldn't take everything so seriously, I know I know. I must stop over analyzing everything, I KNOWWW. seriously I had no idea how to handle or what to do in situations like this. yes, I understand perfectly every one's busy doing what they do for a better future, in the name of career and success. but I didn't get (or like) the idea of us not knowing a damn thing with what's going on in our lives. I know it isn't done intentionally. I know this because times when I want to send a how are you text? there's no line. try again? there's no credit. reloaded? gotta help mom in the kitchen before she starts screaming. done helping? go finish homework. finish homework? watch tv. after that? totally forgot that its still in outbox and thought its already sent then think more why she didn't reply sob. times where I AM free and everything's perfect, that person either has class or outside partying or catching up with sleep. how now brown cow? so I did the stupidest thing : went all emo. but I blame it all on my PMS this month lah, hormones full-blast wtf.
dimple monkey ♥I heard something interesting from a television programme the other day, that a relationship is when you find someone that will agree to put up with all your shit. I think this applies to him more than it does to me :P my baby here once said my hands were smelly. I refused to talk to him for 30 minutes wtf. he left few minutes earlier than promised, I ignored him the whole night le sigh. so many sulking moments between him and I, of course yours truly did most of the sulking. but no matter how much I push him away he'll still come back. awww baby ♥ I cannot stress how much I love this boy. indeed I am lucky, to be inlove with my best friend.