"Sachie has a huge ego"

she blurted that out in the middle of class. pretty shocked that it came from her, but it wasn't anything of the offense sort. as we all laughed it off I wondered, do I really? I heard very interesting thoughts from JW last night. at that time, okay, it was easy absorbing all of that but this morning when I woke up and thought through everything, I thought, hmm. but I did had the right to be angry. to be upset. to be sulking over everything. okay fine I know I damn emotional, sensitive, sentimental and temperamental... okay wait you know what I take back what I said hahahaha.

but anyways because of what she said about me having a big ego I can't stop listening to Beyonce's Ego haha.

some call it arrogant, I call it confident
you decide when you find on what I'm working with
damn.

this past three weeks has been hard. hard to cope, hard to adjust, hard to accept. its been full with tears and hurtful words. I just want to stop time and just freeze everything from passing so fucking quickly. it isn't fun being an escapist when all it brings me is trouble. and the lost of respect from others. why? I'm still good. I still can reach the top when I want to. the daily cycle is just so boring. I want to travel. to learn outside this cramped space. I want I want I want sigh.


can't stop now, I've traveled so far.


what's keeping me sane :


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