I know that you hide, alone in your car.
Saturday, September 11
I'd always pour everything as I type away but it always be saved as draft. Waiting there silently, patiently. Compromised into thinking it'll ever go public when in reality it won't.
"See, this is why I am a person with such close relationships with my family. Because people out of the circle, they are just not worth it. The more attention I put on them, I'd only get stressed."
So far my Eid celebration has been very satisfying. No complains there. Everything seems to be falling into place the way it should be. I'm waiting for my parents to get ready as we have another house to go to later. What surprises me this year is how drained I am! All my life I've never felt this tired when celebrating Raya. Its like all my energy has been totally sucked out of having fun. Making the best out of it I believe. Especially when college starts tomorrow. At first I was so much in denial, not accepting the fact that we only get three-day leave. But now I am so excited for more practices and classes. Want want want. Ngap!
