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Friday, February 18

I've been experimenting a lot these days. I've lost so much, this year endows much patience, me succumbing to theories of auras and vibes or even that look you give me, is typical. The crowd where I got awfully complacent with, God already took four of them away. Not in death, just separation. Not completely, but it was abrupt. with absolute excruciation. Place them all in front of me now, it's still distant. These experiments of mine goes down to the same answer - be positive. Even though what I just did is nowhere near that but the aftermath requires it so be it. Be optimistic. From the start, who would believe me? I thought. Hence, I'll keep it quiet and hidden in a corner where it's pink and happy. Reality is too grey. Pink moments come ever so briefly and when it does occur, troubles are automatically wrapped and stamped away. I had a few pink moments today. I tried to make it last longer.

Random updates :

- raced with a bmw then got a little puzzled why are we still going in the same direction, turns out he's my neighbor omg.

- I still can't reverse park for nuts.

- ... I still can't reverse park for nuts.

- I get very excited driving my car after it's been washed and vacuumed.

- 97% of the scratches on my car are caused by other cipet drivers. 2% JW and 1% me. hehe.

Yes I purposely talked about my car because I've recently fell in love with it again. I love long drives - alone or not. but hor I suck at directions so sometimes I still depend on my parents to send me to places like Klang or Shah Alam. That is until my dad gave me his GPS. Yeah, tough love. and I still get very panicky when I have to drive in the heavy rain omg so fucking scary okay especially when you can't see a bloody thing.

Okay got class now byebye.

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