It's insane what I grew attached to in the past three weeks. At least, tonight is kind. Grant myself full credits for that. It's as if it was clearly written that at this particular date & time, I will finally snap out of this reverie. One heck of a mind-boggling dream. To think I was so close yet so far at the same time. but why does the mind do this? All of which you know will remain unanswered, why the habit to dwell in its obsoleteness.

It's cold out. I sit here beside the pool listening through old hits & immersing myself in its magic, in every memory it holds. Occasionally I slap my calves to end the annoying itch due to the mosquitoes, and Tasha sits opposite me googling ABRSM while her usual comedy series plays in the background. I think the way we put up the mosquito repellent is quite epic. I just got off the phone with a dear friend who's leaving tonight to pursue his career overseas. He's one of those people where you meet and you just know instantly that you'll be close friends with that person for a very long time. The phone call was full of sighs and good wishes, giggles in between and silly threats that has been said too much, but it never gets too old. So many are so far away now... too many. One is leaving to Adelaide next month too. Another old friend called to check on how I was doing. For the first time, I couldn't recall the things she said we did. To be remembered like that, it feels amazing.

How much time has passed...