so much for blogging more frequently.

sometimes when life moves too fast, it's hard for me to sit down and write and give justice to each moment and when it slows down, I let myself immerse in all its goodness that is tranquility, self-reflection, and actual human interaction. I used to reach out to this site a lot, regardless of what my mental state was, it was my sidekick. but in between when life just kept going downhill, I just couldn't put myself to publish a post. I have too many drafts pending and I think, they should just stay as drafts. I battled so much with pessimism this past few months I honestly thought I was bipolar. One minute I would be all hopeful and optimistic and then something bad piles on the bad and I fall back into being the worst cynic on planet earth. It is hard when what you've envisioned for yourself is the total opposite in reality. Worst when it is something that's beyond my control, my capability. At times it gets ridiculously confusing, other times downright frustrating. But that's something I have to learn to embrace and manipulate on my own. After all, this is MY life, right? I've contemplated many times to erase this site but there are too many memories and attachments that I just, can't. Therefore, I'll write till the end of time and I will browse through my archives and have trips down memory lane whenever I want to just for the fun of it. So yeah, that very thought brought me back here, so hello. Here's to more consistent future blogging!

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